Title : Trust the truth in yourself. Sunday morning writings...love to you all!
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Trust the truth in yourself. Sunday morning writings...love to you all!
Its a good morning for a little sketch on feelings and trusting them.
All suffering comes from the violation of intuition, when we havent set out our innate intentions, when we go against ourselves, but how does this happen?
Its taken me a long time to write something on this subject. Its a very big subject. Here is my little synopsis for what I have learned about trust, trusting my situation and trusting whats meant to be is meant to be. This needs a bit of fine tuning but Im just letting it go! Just feel it.
I am tuned into my divine plan (or so my friend told me yesterday. I just stole that as it sounded very nice). Not like many others in my situation, I have taken this road of self observation. Its been a very difficult road to decipher why I ended up in this place of a terminal disease. Its actually been the hardest knot to undo, to discover parts of myself I really didnt like and to open up myself to the real truth of my existence. There has been many ups and downs, (to say the least) but all in all I wouldnt change this life experience for the world. What cancer patient says that? ME! I love my life. I love the me I am becoming or have become as I am wide eyed and open to all the universe and this life has to offer me. And believe me shes been very kind. I am still alive and here writing about life! Superb isnt it! Yes theres been some suffering, but my mind just takes me to other places and I dont dwell on those struggles, for they have made me who I am now.
We are raised that we dont know whats best for us and so we are constantly told what to do, what society thinks is right. Caught in an endless struggle to shape ourselves to meet societal norms. Its very tiring for some!
Our feelings are the compass of what guide us through life.
Our feelings start at such a young age and we depend on our parents, siblings and teachers to guide us through our feelings. But our parents generation were not taught how to expand their lives through talking about their feelings and either were their parents. The world was a different place then, than it is now. The most important thing for them was to make money, get a home and raise the children in the best way possible. That was the conditioning in their lives. No time to think outside that box. These are the things that are important in life to think about. Isnt it funny that we have all been conditioned to do this. You must suffer a job you hate to get the bliss, that bliss you see in magazines and tv programs. That life that looks great, but is really not real.
I was chatting to a friend the other day and she said that when she showed emotion when she was young, her mother used to stay. ''Oh stop that, you will be fine, stop being a drama queen", and so my friend bottled up her thoughts because her mother was incapable of discussing feelings with her. If she was upset, she just had to be upset, but not talk about it. She told me that this was hard for her to deal with and she is only dealing with this now at 40 years old and figuring out that she needs a partner to be emotionally developed. She just wanted to be able to discuss things with her partner.
Another pal told me that she was forced to get good grades so much that it almost sent her to St. John of Gods at 16. Another pal said her grades were always compared to the neighbours children, I had to laugh as I had a bit of that too!
Our parents had to box us off into things they thought we were good at, as to actually stop and take a year out of school, to figure out to discover who we are, or what we like would be a crime. I remember it well. There was always so much pressure to keep going. For what? We have our whole lives to think about a career and our future. I think there is too much pressure to do this so early in life and there is not enough career guidance for kids. Kids need to get out and see the world before being made to choose their future studies and ambitions. (gosh I just slipped that in there, as I have always wanted to say that. Its so important for the future happiness of our lives. This process is the one thing that should be looked at more in schools. My career guidance was that I should have been an actor. LOL)
I loved Iceland's idea of 3rd level education - as people went to college or university later and when I taught at the university, they were older (in their 20's and late 20's) and had a more clear objective compared to me a seventeen year old leaving an all girls convent school and heading to art college. When I think about it, it was sort of ridiculous for a 17 year old to know their future life. Yes education is good, but I also think there is so much force with it. Its just rushed and pushed on us. Leaving university at 21 seems so young now.
There are so many of us who are just not able to go to our thoughts. I know myself I have blocked some feelings for years, but they are stored in my tissues somewhere. Most definately some contributed to my illness, which I am peeling off daily. Those deep rooted conditions and all those feelings need to get out, all those stories of hurt from the past, even the passive aggressive bullies in adulthood. We just need to get rid of them all. We are born with stuff from our ancestors running through our DNA and literally we have to get rid of all this past remorse and shackles we hold from birth. All of their past is in our DNA. But as we know we can change the chemicals in our body and therefore our circumstance and lives. I think some people find it easier to be negative than positive as some see being nice and kind as a weakness.
When we ignore our feelings, or when we cannot understand why we are feeling a certain way,
it is because we have abandoned ourselves?
How do we abandon ourselves?
By running way from these negative emotions, ignoring how you are really truely feeling. Getting to the core of why you are panicking, feeling anxious, feeling angry, negative, frustration is paramount to the healing process. The healing process is acknowledging all these issues and just letting them go. Out the door and never again to bring them up, because then when you are bringing them up again and again our brain thinks we are going through it again and again and therefore we are in the loop of non healing, survival fight or flight mode. We are abusing ourselves, reliving the horror over and over again, pumping the adrenal glands and causing mayhem in our body. Sometimes our sufferings are to control situations and even make things better, but it goes against others ideas. Suffering is to burn out all that is impure. And a perfect pure and enlightened being cannot suffer.
So we need to stop escaping ourselves and get to the actual root of our feelings. We can learn to be with our emotions, even if they feel good or bad. Our body gets used to these emotions (whether good or bad) and so they become habits and then eventually our personality. Our body begins to seek out what it knows so lets hope the filter is a nice positive one. Because the body gets addicted to what it knows.
We go to therapists to understand ourselves.
What if we just had a conversation with ourselves to understand ourselves. We are our own therapists. Thoughts are us speaking to ourselves. Make them good and have a chat with yourself.
We dont realise that there is so much more inside of us to create the trust within ourselves.
We just need to tap into that. How? Meditation and sitting in silence. Im almost tired of the word meditation now. I just call it silence.
Sitting in silence is what clears all for me. it needs to be a good hour or two, too. 5am job.
I love silence.
"A silenced mind is a pure life".
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