Title : Halloween my favourite time of the year....and computer games...
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Halloween my favourite time of the year....and computer games...
Ah I love Halloween. Love dressing up. We were very naughty eating Mc Donalds and the next morning after I ate it I woke up in a sweat and stinking of the Big Mac and chips I had eaten the night before. It was so weird. I had to change all my sheets, and pjs it was absolutely disgusting. it just goes to show what bad food can do. My body just wanted to get rid of it out through the pores. Yuck!As some of you may know I was not well last week. I was bed bound, so lathargic and well not myself. I am still very tired and taking total time out from everything. Its not that easy when everyone just wants to care for you and send you their love through messages and phone calls. Its the last thing I want to be doing, explaining my ill health. victimhood is not my thing. But I remained calm though I was unable to do anything. And then anxiousness kicks in that I am unable to do anything and wonder how long I will be like this. But all is well now thank God. I had never ever been in bed for a week apart from operations. It has certainly slowed me down. Well apart from dancing last night till 12 at my friends 40th. haha
I went in for bloods and finally saw my oncologist on Wednesday. On meeting me she was shocked to see how good I was looking. Thats good. Then when we got to the office and sat down she asked how was I really. I told her I was doing alot better than the week before but that I was tired. My body was tired. She looked and me and said that she and the nurse thought I would die. "Really?". Yes. "Wow ok". Well Lazarus is back! It was not my time yet. Its just mad. But I knew it wasnt my time just yet althought I felt ready to go in a very strange way. She asked what I did and I told her what really brought me back was drinking Kaqun water. Its oxygenated water. As soon as I drank half a litre of that my head and arms didnt feel so heavy. The she asked "What are we going to do now?" and right there and then, as I think I was in a little bit of shock when she said she thought I would be dead I said I would take some chemo. So she decided that I would take half of the prescription. I agreed. But then when I came home and slept on it I decided that I am still not ready to take it. I am so stubborn, yes I know. But I am so trying to heal my body myself and hey if I die trying at least I know I tried, not only for me but for others too. My life is bigger than me. The hardest part about change is not making the same choice as others (in my mind) so I am just trying. I am eating loads of fats and no carbs. It is so difficult but I am going full on ketogenic.
The biggest curve ball I am trying to overcome currently is to try and give my kid the best childhood he can have. From this standing point now it has to be without computer games. This has been the hardest hurdle, a testing time as he is absolutely obsessed with it like most other children. I have read so many articles of other mothers and fathers in the same position where the children are literally not able to do anything else but be absorbed by the games. And so the computer has been put away as everything was revolving around it from negotiating washing his teeth to going to bed. If hes not on it, hes thinking about it, talking about it, he wants to be watching other people playing it on youtube. He would never come off it when I asked him to as the joys of winning awards in the game was far greater than having to pick the clothes up of the floor in real life. It has been the most trying time and when I have not been able to do all I can with him and he feels like life is over and he will have no friends and why is he the only one that its been taken away from. Its upsetting seeing him upset. Its so tough for a child to comprehend that we are just doing it for his own good.
I know its been a crutch for him to hang onto and disappear into this world but I lost my child to that game fortnite for the last few months and unfortunately myself and his dad just couldnt take it anymore as it has gotten out of control. Its tough as he says he hates me at the moment but please god in time he will appreciate what we are trying to do for him. We really want him to begin to use his imagination and begin to appreciate the other smaller things in life.
Its been a total gamechanger (excuse the pun) and a rollercoaster for him and my heart sinks as I want him to be happy and having fun, however, without computer games. Its a false life in the virtual world and I know where it can take people having worked in the industry for a few years. His emotional reactions began to get out of control and he had turned into bad mood everytime he came off the game which is just part and parcel of the effects of the game. They want kids addicted. I have talked to some other parents and we are all in the same boat. I dont want this to be his tempermant or personality in years to come. I used to work in the games industry but I really see now watching my child get addicted to a game what it can do. Between the rages and the fighting with friends and then every interaction with us was the time he can spend on it, the V-bucks or vouchers and skins he wants to buy and just not being present when we are doing other things. One night he woke up a few times in the night to turn is on at 1am, 4am and 6am. I mean thats just so sad. So its over now indefinately. Bye bye computer. I wish I never succumbed. It was my fault really. But we got other things to do with our lives. I have to teach my kid all about the multiverse and life and death!
I talked with him asking him why he liked playing the victim. Its sets him up
There is so much new information online saying that this game can cause mental disorders. Do I want to be the mother who gave my kid a mental disorder? Gosh no. And so I will stand to be the worst mother in the world for the next few weeks until he has other habits in place to replace the game he was so fond of and addicted to. Thats my mission over the coming weeks. I just hope I have enough energy to do this. I hope I can do this. I know he is so sad as all his friends are playing and its all they discuss in the playground. We have had conversations about how this hurts him and me, but an addiction is an addiction. Its incredible. He will learn his way out of this and become the self motivated happy boy I want him to be. Theres so much more to life than the virtual world. We are just here to guide you for a little while.
True love can take its toll,
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